I realize that I'm very bad at expressing myself unless it's unhappiness. So I've put together a little... playlist. So you know how I feel through prettier words than the ones I could've given. (the links are just to the full lyrics, btw)

Always On My Mind - Phantom Planet - i'm told that i'm a victim of obsession, that's what my friends say. oh i'm a fool for having ever let her tempt me. well i turn pale when she walks by, i am lost in her eyes. she is always on my mind. - Pretty obvious.. always on my mind, she's always on my mind.

You Were The Last High - The Dandy Warhols - I am alone but adored by a hundred thousand more than I said when you were the last high and I have known love like a whore from at least ten thousand more than I swore...when you were the last. - A song that describes us very well, I think. You're always so worried because so many people love me so much but you're the only one who gives me a ~luv high. Yessim, I'm lame. But this song is totally perfect.

Here I Stand - Madina Lake - Here I stand all alone tonight and I wish I was strong enough to breathe without you in my life. - Probably one of the more pathetic songs on this, I'll admit it. But I can relate to this song so much when we're having our little fights.

Vanilla Twilight - Owl City - The silence isn't so bad 'til I look at my hands and feel sad 'cause the spaces between my fingers are right where yours fit perfectly - This is one of the songs that just, sorta kills me. Because I can feel it and I probably would have written it about you if I wrote songs and it just makes me want to cuddle you and hold you with me forever. I feel so pathetic when I listen to this song. I don't even... hmph.

Chasing Cars - Snow Patrol - I need your grace to remind me, to find my own. - I couldn't figure out which of the lyrics I wanted to post for you here. This whole song just... reminds me of you. And. It makes me feel so happy to have you. I know I know I know. I'm super cheesy. But. Whatever. I don't quite know how to say how I feel. Those three words, are said too much, they're not enough.

Half of My Heart - John Mayer - I was made to believe I'd never love somebody else; made a plan, stay the man who can only love himself. lonely was the song I sang, 'til the day you came. - HELLO SONG IN WHICH I REALLY COULD'VE WRITTEN. I feel like out of all the songs I've put here, this one describes our relationship from my point of view the best. It's obviously about someone who's never really wanted to love, and who avoids it and who doesn't really believe in it and then someone like Maria Sanchez bursts the perfectly happy bubble. And it's really hard to love them with your whole heart because you've never known how and you're sorta afraid of being hurt. your faith is strong but I can only fall short for so long. down the road, later on, you will hate that I never gave more to you than half of my heart but I can't stop loving you.

She's Killing Me - A Rocket To The Moon - So I went out and bought her roses, she complained about the thorns. I caught her smiling and that's what I do it for. - You like to pretend that I'm the only problem in our relationship but that's a total lie because you're a giant bitch some of the time too! I love you more for it, though and this song talks about said love rather nicely. JSYK.

Things I'll Never Say - Avril Lavigne - If I could say what I want to say: I'd say I want to blow you away, be with you every night. Am I squeezing you too tight? - Avril Lavigne is one of my biggest guilty pleasures, and this song is just... very. true. Again with the lack of good communication, this song gets it. LIKE SOMEONE NAMED MARIA DOESN'T. I'm feeling nervous, trying to be so perfect... cause I know youre worth it. You're worth it.

Better Together - Jack Johnson - there's no combination of words i could put on the back of a postcard, no song that i could sing but i can try for your heart - This is one of those songs that you have to listen to to really understand why I put it here. It's just such a.....pretty song. And it reminds me of you.

Soundtrack For Our Movie - Mae - Well I'm a wreck. I really can't explain it but I, I hear the music when I look at you. Orchestrating the song to accommodate the moment. Well, I'm so in love with you. - Pretty obvious meaning-wise and...well...............................I hear the music when I look at you. Also, lets pause to talk about how awesome this band is for having the same name as my middle name. Kdone.

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